Celiac and Loneliness

This past May, we celebrated the one-year anniversary of my daughter being diagnosed with Celiac disease. One year of gluten-free. One year of healing.

We celebrated because of the hard work my punkin had put in. She is incredible at knowing what she can eat, what she can’t, and checking on things she’s unsure of. She’s better than even me and she never complains.

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Baptism… in simplest terms

Have you ever been to a doctor? I’m sure. I pretty much hate going to the doctor. I always feel like they are rushing me or making me feel stupid.

Have you ever been to a doctor you absolutely loved? One who listened to every single question and took your feedback seriously and understands that you know your own body? One who really works with you to get to a healthy state? Chances are if you can answer yes, you’ve probably told a lot of people about this doctor!

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Who Jesus says I am is all that matters

I love photography. I love art. I love taking pictures from unique angles and of random things. I also love photographing my kiddo, my friends, special events, flowers, weeds, the sky… I think you get the point. Beauty is all around us and I’d like to think that most of the time, I’m pretty good about taking the time to notice it.

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The Couch Scene

So there’s this scene in MAID on Netflix. Alex, the main character and victim of domestic violence, sinks into a couch and into a deep dark abyss.

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When victory’s due, I help you.

God also says, “When the time’s ripe, I answer you. When victory’s due, I help you.”

Isaiah 49:8

My victory is due and God is here to help me battle and win.

October is Domestic Violence Awareness month. Historically, it’s been a rough month for me and this year is no exception. However, in addition to the normal October isn’t great-ness, I have been spiritually attacked. I wrote last week about spiritual battles and it’s coming straight from my personal life.

People from my past. Nightmares. Unwanted memories pushing back to the forefront. Triggers coming left and right. I guess I should mention that I was in a marriage of domestic violence, for those of you who don’t know my story. I did a whole series of 8 posts titled #1thing on it two years ago as a way to help others understand what domestic violence really looks like in all it’s ugly facets. It’s not just physical. You can see the start of it here: #1Thing: Post 1

This month is a little different. This month, the darkness I never wanted to deal with is rising up. The things I couldn’t face before. And although I still want to push it back down and pretend it doesn’t exist, I’m not going to. God is calling me to battle. It’s time to face these demons head on and with God’s help get victory over them and the past.

What does that look like?

  1. For me, it’s starting with prayer. Telling Jesus everything I’m thinking – the good, the bad, and the ugly and asking for Him to protect me, guide me, and help me through these moments.
  2. There’s also lots of praise and worship music going on. The enemy cannot coincide with our praise and worship.
  3. I’ve been reaching out to friends. Letting them know that at the moment, I am not ok. Receiving their support and love and thankful I have some people to talk it out with.
  4. This one is crazy… I normally avoid any kind of tv/movies that involve crime, domestic violence, negative things. I will vehemently tell you that the world has enough evil in it, I’ve seen enough of it first hand, that I don’t need to watch it for entertainment. And yet, God led me to a show called Maid. It’s about a woman who walks away from domestic violence. It’s her story. And I decided to watch it. I decided to stare the ugliness in the face and feel the feelings and work through them. As a side note, so far it’s excellent. It shows different facets of domestic violence, how it looks different for different people, what it can be, and there’s lots of good information in it as well. Much of it parallels my story – the things she went through, the court cases, the feelings. One huge difference that I’m so thankful for, though, is I always had my family and friends to count on and help me. It breaks my heart that so many women face it alone. So, yes, this is helping me process. Maybe I’ll write a separate post on that alone when I finish the series.
  5. And lastly, and this one is so important, I’ve reached out to a counselor that specializes in what I need. It was hard to dial the number. I’ve been through counseling before, years in fact, but still this will be a new counselor and I will be dealing with new things. And, I absolutely hate making phone calls. But I called, I asked, and I have an appointment today with a strong Christian counselor recommended by a friend.
  6. Ok, one more… I’m talking about what happened. When darkness is brought to the light, it loses it’s power. I can share what I’ve been through, and I am still loved. Still worthy. And I am healing.

Why am I sharing this?? I. don’t. know. God told me to. Which means someone, somewhere is going to read this who needs to read it. Someone is hurting. Someone is facing some past hurts of some kind. Someone has some demons of their own they are ready to break free from. Perhaps someone has been through domestic violence and needs hope or a starting point. Someone will read this and be helped or encouraged or led to take their hurts to prayer, to a friend, to a counselor.

That’s why I share. To help others. Even when it feels yucky to me.

It’s a Tuesday, friends.

Be Silly … and an unexpected twist.

Be silly with life.

Have fun.

Do some ridiculous things.

Because… why not?

Life is hard and serious and we put a lot of effort into just living. And if you’re a parent, you can like, you know, triple that effort x 10 to the power of whatever.

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Fighting Spiritual Attacks with God’s Truth

Spiritual attacks are real. They come in all shapes and sizes and from any means the enemy thinks will work. Words, situations, events…

They can gut punch you and leave you lying on the floor wondering what happened. They can sneak in subtly or be in your face evil. They can come hidden under a smile and sickly sweet words to the point you don’t even realize it’s an attack until after the fact when you’re shaking and wondering if you’re going to pass out.

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The Wild-Hearted & World Changers

You ever get hit with a quote or verse at just the right moment in your life? This one is perfect for the season I’m in… the season I’m struggling in, I should say. Check it out:

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