Heart’s cry

I call out to You, but hear no answer.

I ask for Holy Spirit power, but feel nothing.

I beg for my own prayer language, for faith to use the prayer language I know You have given me but nothing comes.

Where are you, God?

I ask to be used as a vessel for You, am I not good enough?

I know that I am, because I am fearfully and wonderfully made by You. My spirit knows You, loves You, praises You.

But my physical body is weak and tired and ill and confused.

I believe You can heal any illness, I believe that we are called to be your vessels of healing!

So I don’t understand why I pray and this simple ear infection remains. I call down heavens power, in Jesus name, to such a minor problem here on Earth but there appears no answer.

My daughter lays hands on me and with her pure faith demands, in Jesus name, for it to be gone and it remains.

Is my faith too weak? I pray and beg that You would fill me with supernatural faith! I want the faith to move mountains!

You are so good, God. You created everything with your Word. You lived and died so that I could stand worthy before You. You have done miracles in my own life, time and again.

Let me be a part of Your miracles!

Let me be a vessel used by You to do supernatural things!

Allow Holy Spirit to flow through me onto and into others!

USE me, Father God!

Don’t leave me feeling abandoned and defeated. Don’t let me stay in this place of unrest and confusion!

You are a good Father who gives good gifts to His children!

Well, I am Your child!

I am asking for Your gifts of faith and healing and more Holy Spirit power!

I know You will answer this prayer.

I know You are a living God who answers prayers and does miracles. My own life is a testimony of this.

Don’t wait long, Father God. Don’t leave me in this place for much longer.

Show Yourself again to me. Soon. Show me Your power and grace and love.

So that I can continue to be a testimony of who You are.

You are good.

You are loving.

You are kind.

Meet me today, Jesus, in a new and fresh way.

I will continue to worship You for who You are. I look forward to feeling Your presence again.

May I and all who read this be blessed today, in Jesus name.

10 Comments on “Heart’s cry

  1. Hallelujah for this precious heart cry from deep within your spirit! God hears and His move of power is coming. Breakthrough is coming.


  2. Beautifully put, but also remember for whatever reason which as humans we don’t understand God does not heal all of his children. That doesn’t mean you are not good enough, that doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you. I have a child who has been sick for many years with different rare diseases as well as adrenal cancer. I have watch that in spite of the horrible pain she has everyday of her life God still uses her and he will use you. As long as you have the willing heart God can and will use to minister to another who maybe going through the same situation as yourself. You are His child and He loves you never forget that. And remember don’t let anyone tell you that you have no faith because you do my friend.


    • Thank you so much for your encouraging words! I’m sorry to hear about watching your child go through that. It is awful watching our children suffer. I know that God uses me and will continue to do so. I also am thankful that God is willing to listen to me cry out in confusion and doubt and allow me to be real with my feelings. But still, above it all, I choose to worship Him! Thank you!

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      • I have preach to a congregation many times, it is easy to Praise God on the mountain top when everything is going well in our lives, but it is when we are in the pit of the valley when we can see in front that we Praise God even louder, and that is what we do. In John 16:33 when Jesus was preparing his disciples about when he will die he tells them in this world you will have trouble but take heart I have overcome the world.


      • Yes! Exactly this! It’s not easy but I KNOW who God is, even when I don’t feel it.

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