To Be Held, #DVAM

October is Domestic Violence Awareness Month – a month where I usually share my journey of where I’ve come from in an effort to raise awareness, spread hope, and share resources.

This year, so far, I haven’t felt compelled to share anything. I actually thought God was going to let me off the hook! lol! However, yesterday a song hit me right in the gut, a song that took my breath away, and took me right back to my darkest moments and reminded me that it was God who held me and got me through.

I was in an abusive marriage. I left when my daughter was 5 months old and over the next 4 years, he not only tried to continue to hurt me… the courts allowed him access and availability to hurt my daughter. There came a day when things got to the point that I said never again and refused to send her. It’d be nice to say that the courts backed me up but it was God who performed a miracle that allows me to keep her safe now. She never has to see him again.

Those were dark, dark, yucky days. The true feeling of despair and hopelessness. And the only way I got through was because God was holding me. There moments when that was it. God was there and it’s the only thing that got me through.

God never promises that we won’t face dark days. The world is filled with sinful evil people and because of free will, bad things happen. It hurts God as well but He values free will too much to take it away. I believe God mourns with us and when we have a relationship with Him, He is with us every moment. Through every tear, every agonizing second. He holds us and we get through.

The song I heard on the radio brought me straight back to that point. It is raw and emotional and not a feel good, lift me up song.

It is the song of a woman who went through the most devastating thing I can imagine, worse than what I’ve been through, and God held her through it. She wrote this song because God held her and she wants others to be encouraged as well. I’m going to link the author’s blog post below because I think you should hear it in her words. It is powerful. It is painful. It is beautiful.

Her story shows that God can use our pain to help others, if we are willing. And in doing so, He heals us.

You can read it here:

I will post the song below along with links to my blog posts from last year about my story of domestic violence. Because God can use pain to help others. Because my story may help someone else. Because maybe it’s something you need to hear or maybe you need the resources for help. I’m posting them and sharing them because God is asking me to.

Life can be raw and painful and tragic, but God can make beauty come out of it. That may be one of my favorite things about God. He can turn something awful into something amazing. In fact, it’s a promise of His to do just that for those who love Him.

Here’s the song.

And here are the links to my posts from last October, Domestic Violence Awareness Month.

Post 1, #1thing:

Post 2, #1thing – Not Physical:

Post 3, #1thing – Intimidation:

Post 4, #1thing – Emotional Abuse:

Post 5, #1thing – Threats:

Post 6, #1thing – Isolation and Economics:

Post 7, #1thing – Children:

Last post, #1thing – Why did you stay?:

I don’t usually end with a thank you, but thank you for reading this post. Thank you for learning, sharing, and being encouraged – which encourages me.

I hope you have a most blessed day today.

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