I heard a song yesterday by Matthew West that says “Truth be told, the truth is rarely told.”
He goes on to sing about how we say we’re fine when we’re really not, we tell others we’ve got everything under control even when we don’t.
It resonated with me because one thing I’m trying to do with this blog is be honest and vulnerable. Not for compliments, not for encouragement, not because I need anything from the people reading it… but because I want the truth to be told.
I know there are others like me, who feel the same as me, who have been through similar things as me, who struggle with anxiety like me, who feel unworthy at times like me… and I want the truth to be told.
I want others to know they are not alone. I want people to see that there is hope. I want to show that it’s possible to grow and change and share and still be loved and worthy and capable.
I don’t want others to look at me and think, geez that girl’s a hot mess but rather she seems like me. I don’t ever want to present like I’ve got it all together, because, I promise you, I don’t.
I don’t like talking about all my failures and insecurities and weaknesses, but how else will the truth be told? How else can I help someone who is feeling down? Lost? Unloved? Alone?
I suppose if you never feel these things, then my blog may not be for you. If you read and think she’s a pile of messy life and you don’t relate… then maybe a different blog is what you’re looking for… unless… is the truth being told by you?
I would like to think I’m not the only one. I know I’m not the only one… but how many people struggle with similar things? A few? A lot? All?
If the truth were to be told, do you have days on top of the mountain followed by days in the valley? Or days when you go from one to the other by the hour?
Is there a place deep inside you that struggles with insecurity and unworthiness?
Are there things in your life that you don’t really share with others because you are ashamed of them? The feelings, the thoughts, the actions?
Slowly but surely, I’m laying it all out here to show you that you are not alone. That despite our feelings, we are worthy and loved and valuable.
No matter our struggles, we can rise above them.
That it is our struggles and failures and worries that make us grow and change and become better humans.
And truth be told, isn’t that the point of it all anyway?