The fog has lifted. If you’ve been reading my blog, you know that October is a very difficult month. On top of the lasting effects of abuse, I spent many days writing about domestic violence. I also suffer from migraines and tried my first migraine medicine this week. It turned what is normally a 2 day migraine into an on again off again six day migraine. It’s been rough.
But last night, I was relaxing and I realized… the fog was lifting. The heaviness that had been weighing me down, the elephant on my chest, the feeling that I can’t even really explain that comes with October… it’s lifting. I can see it in my daughter and I can feel it in myself. I. am. so. thankful.
The thing with these times of our lives is they always pass. Feelings come and they go. Sometimes feelings come and go within the hour and sometimes, these bigger feelings, these periods of feelings last longer. But there is always an end. We always make it through. If you can hang on to that thought, it helps.
The end is coming. It will not last forever. I won’t always feel like I have no control over the world. I won’t always feel like I can’t eat healthy because anxiety has me gripped tightly in a hold I cannot escape from. I won’t always cry over my daughter who is struggling in her own way. The period will end and a new one will begin.
One of my favorite, favorite, quotes I ever found on pinterest is this one…
I’ve felt these feelings before and sat with them, and so I can sit with them today.
This has been so powerful for me. I know there are ups and downs. I know there are seasons of highs and lows. And I know that I will get through them all.
With prayer, God’s help, meditation, my amazing friends and family, and just time…. we can get through. Time is a big one. Sometimes, we just have to get through the season. One foot in front of the other, doing the best you can.
To be honest, this quote/picture has gotten me through some much darker times than just a rough 2 weeks. It’s gotten me through the hardest of hardest times. But it helps now too. It’s a good reminder that I’ve come through far worse and I can weather the current feelings as well.
I’m so thankful that for now, the fog has lifted. I feel an uplifting of my spirits, a renewed energy to live my life to the best of my ability, and clarity in my mind. I feel slightly sad that my posts have been so dark this month and that I have felt dark as well… but that is my life, and I said I would share it openly.
I can tell you I am ready to move on to more joyful topics though! God is good. Life is good. With ups and downs and all, life is good.
Let’s share our good vibes today, friends. Happy Monday!